Elusive Search for Balance
It has occurred to me lately that no matter what I SAY I believe, it doesn’t mean much if I don’t put my money where my mouth is! I often forget all the great and wonderful things I’ve learned over the years about how to ground myself, stay centered, find balance, and peacefully move forward. I get lost in the busy-ness of my day, the perceived urgency of the tasks at hand. When I am ungrounded, time seems to fly by, while I meander in a state of inner chaos. At these times, it feels like I am merely enduring the ride, rather than orchestrating my beautiful life.
And then, when I pause from working on my passion projects – I remember that I, alone, can stop the madness of this carousel. At any moment, I can choose to stop, center myself, breathe, connect, and shift my entire focus until I am aligned with my inner truth. I know how to do this, how to find balance. I know that it works. And yet, I might consciously choose to continue floundering.
But I know better. And if I dig a bit deeper – it’s more than just a quirk. My tendency to get swept away by the unimportant details is a form of Self-Sabotage. That’s right – so long as I can justify to myself that I am BUSY doing things that have some value, then I can avoid getting down to the nitty gritty.
New (and more pertinent questions) arise:
- Why am I sabotaging myself?
- What is it I am avoiding?
- Why do I put off having peace and harmony in my every moment?
- I know better, so why am I not putting this knowledge to good use?
- When am I going to commit to my priorities?
These questions don’t have simple answers.
Wait. Yes, they do.
The answers are simple, but the process of discovering the answers isn’t. Answering these questions requires me to be very honest with myself. Sometimes this type of honesty scares me. At the same time, this raw connection with my self is also rewarding and satisfying. I haven’t been doing the little things every day that I KNOW will keep me centered, grounded, in harmony with my divinity. I’ve gotten lost in the belief that I have to get it all done today.
I am living proof that balance is not a destination, once you’ve learned how to obtain it – you’ve got to learn how to maintain it.
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